vulnerable first post
Vulnerable First Post!
May 15, 2020
Good morning (night, evening.. whenever you’re reading this). I’m happy that you’re here! Ya’ll… it has been a long journey of me getting to this point. This point where this page is public and other eyes can view this. A few weeks ago I got an email saying that my Bluehost/Wordpress subscription was about to renew… Which means one full year went by where I talked myself out of doing this. ONE. FULL. YEAR. I can’t remember how much I paid to set everything up, but I paid all of that money to overthink every possible outcome. “What will people think?”, “What if no one even reads anything?”, or “What if I hit a wall, and I’m not even sure what to write about anymore?” I mean, anything negative, it came to me.
So quick backstory, I haven’t always loved writing… It just randomly started happening. During my time with Jesus, certain scriptures and passages just screamed at me. I would just start writing and comparing scripture to everyday life or my own past experiences with the goal of it being relatable with others… but with the ULTIMATE goal that God used my words to draw others closer to Him. So after a few writings, I had a few people (Kyvin Goodin-Rogers & Lewis Fields being the most persistent) tell me that I should start a blog. Honestly… that sounded crazy to me.. no way am I doing that (lol). It got to a point where I felt like this was clearly God. I feel like I was waiting for Jesus himself to show up in a dream and say, “Katrina.. it’s time” but completely ignoring the people He sent into my life that would encourage me to do this. I wrote about this as well, but we can’t wait around for a Damascus moment like Paul had when we feel like the Lord is calling us to do something. Now that doesn’t mean to not to pray, seek wise counsel, and check scripture… but if it is in line with God’s Word… just do it (if you’re an over-thinker like me, Just Do Something by Kevin DeYoung is a great, short read).
A quote that STINGS every time I prolong something that I feel like God wants me to do is, “Partial obedience is disobedience”. I mean, I kept saying to myself, I’ll send pictures of my writings to people… or post it to Facebook, etc… but that isn’t what I felt like God was telling me to do. My hope is if you’re reading this and feel ANY nudge to do something… AND it’s honoring to Jesus and will glorify His name, then DO IT. If this post gets only two views (including me), I’m just happy that I’m doing what the Lord wants me to do. I pray that you do the same.
SO… here we are. This first post is me being completely honest of my fear of failure being so big sometimes… fear of failure that lead me to be disobedient to God. Galatians 1:10 says, “For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ (ESV).” Some of my posts will be offensive to some… the Gospel is offensive, but I want to serve Christ fully.. with everything in me.
Until next time friends!
Katrina Bazzoli
